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NEW FACEBOOK ACCOUNT.

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 07:59:53 GMT

WELL, HELLO. :D

I made a Facebook account after many exams and many hard earned "wahoos!" over the week.
I'm Alysia there so you can find me easily. :) Those of you that mentioned accounts- I've tried to locate you and send you friend requests.

For everyone else whom I may have not been able to find or has an account! :
ADD ME ADD ME ADD ME. D:<

Cheers!

Alysia

Edit: It's been 20 Days?! Wth. Damn- I've got to work on this punctuality thing. ._.

It's almost..Spring?

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 22:47:06 GMT

Hmmmm......

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................

There's nothing new going on. ._.
I wish I had more to say here.

I'm making a Facebook account this week. >_> I want to be able to see what's going on with y'all and what all the commotion with the site is about.

I should probably close this place too, in all honesty- but the sentimentality-factor is keeping me from pressing the delete button just yet.

Life goes on as it always has, and I'm watching the new administration (government) carry out its business with a renewed interest; much more so than before.

I'm a lot happier these days.

We should all get together and do...something. Internet correspondences are....lacking...
Like...at a mall or something.. :o

-Alysia

Welcome 2009

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 01:57:04 GMT

Hey- does anyone still use these things? o_0

If so: Merry Christmas/ New Year/ Holiday!

Sorry for not get back to you sooner- 2008's been a crazy year for me. (But really, what year hasn't?)

For a long time, I was debating over whether to just delete this blog or start a new one entirely; I haven't really come up with a solution to the problem yet. Not only because this blog is outdated- but because I also associate it with a completely different time of life (for me, that is)- and all the emotional baggage that went with it.

Part of that emotional- whosawhatsits' ( and my extended 'leave of absence', so to speak) was the place where I'd previously lived and hubbub that went on while I was there.
If you remember my late(?) senior year, you might have been aware of fraction of the problem already.
Suffice to say: it wasn't pretty and I came bowling out of it with a huge bout of depression.

To cope with that, I tried various methods over the years: extreme dieting, religious studies, self-help- the works. Chief among those methods, however, was sheer avoidance of anything and everyone that reminded me of the source of that depression. Unfortunately, former friends and various aquaintences were the casualties of this decision.

Time went on and I did nothing but brood and brood about what had happened. Gradually, I came to the realization that shutting everyone out was not the solution to the problem.

So here I am.

And I'd like to extend an apology to whoever's felt hurt or ignored by my behavior.

Doubtless, some bonds may been withered by my prolonged silence, but I hope what remains of those relationships are salvageable. And for what its worth, I'd like to repair those freindships during the coming year.

-A.

[ Our Benefactors ]

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 04:15:20 GMT

The new, Private Weblog hub is hideous.

I completed F.E.A.R. two months ago and Bioshock a few weeks ago. I'm almost finished with Crysis, and in the midst of downloading Half Life 2: Ep. Two as we speak (58%...oh God- why you so slow..?!). I guess I feel..accomplished? *lol*
Some screencaps from the games are below.

(From the top right to left: two from Crysis and four from Bioshock. Click on them for closeups!)

I've started sculpting and painting again and it feels great. (Specifically: one doll and one small portait.)

I've been crapping out on pretty much all my major engagements, but somehow I've managed to keep my head above water this year. The way things are shaping up, 'looks like im going to be doing the Final Justice Shuffle at the end of the semester (i.e. rush in a butload of extra credit and pray nothing goes missing).

Easter is coming up, right? I've got absolutely nothing planned for this weekend. Meh- I should buy more supplies, I suppose.

How have you all been doing?

¤ I Was A Teenage Satan Worshipper- BuNnIeS (electropop, indie)

¤ Oceanlab- Siren's of the Sea (Kyau vs Albert Vocal Mix) (vocal trance)

¤ Figurine- International Space Station ii (post-rock, ambient)

¤ World's End Girlfriend- Wandering (post-rock, instrumental)

¤ Magenta Skycode- Open Air (rock)

No Cannoli

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 04:33:56 GMT

I looked up and I realized that I had not said anything in about a month.
Time passes by as quickly as ever.

I've settled into my new college routine this semester, but I'm still pretty bored creatively. I don't think I've drawn anything seriously in nearly a year. It's...incredible really- how school manages to siphon everything out that's not work-related.

In fact, it's gotten to the point where I've begun to spy on the Art department. In plain sight, of course.

"What's going in that classroom?"
"I wonder if anyone is better than me?"
"The abstract art in the gallery is really awful, I hope this isn't the only thing the professor teaches."
Those are a couple of thing that have been running through my head since last year.

We have three floors in the main Liberal Arts building, and all of the English, Literature and Humanities are housed there. The second floor of this building a hub that connects Science and Math building to the other half of the campus. This hub is the "gallery" of sorts that I'm referring to- where most of the student art work is concentrated.

Picture the big, glossy dobs of circles and the striated lines that you usually see in business offices and internal medicine centers. Long, muted canvases of blotchy landscapes and primary colors.

Whenever I pass by them, they always install this sense of inner-emptiness and melancholy because they lack human or recognizable subjects. Really terrible fare.

I'm hoping I can change that gallery by next semester, or at the very least, make it a bit sunnier. Everyone seems to be depressed enough without them now that the first and second batch of test scores are starting to roll in. The on-again, off-again cold weather isn't helping much, either.

I'm as unfocused and lazy as ever. And I can't help but think that I'll slip into the future just easily as I've slipped into every other stage of my life life- unhurried and rather bored.

I'm going to change this layout. Just you wait...
After 6 long years, I think it's time I moved on.

Internet cake for everybody.

RJD2- 1976 (hip-hop)
"I saw a lady falling, I'm sure now."

Tokyo Police Club- Nature of the Experiment (indie rock)
"We've got our tracks covered thanks to your older brother. It's not the moonlight that sets me off..."

I Was a Teenage Satan Worshipper- Go Home, Pandatron (electropop-dance)
"I know it's all in my head these days..."

The Birthday Massacre- Nevermind (industrial rock)
"Now, in smaller spaces- careless, lust-intoxicated; away from prying eyes and rabid smiles (and everything's shattering)."

Celldweller- Stay With Me (Unlikely) (industial rock)
"Though some say I will heal over time, it doesn't seem too likely."

Kagrra- Kamikaze (alternative rock-fusion)
"Damasu fukou yori damasareru hou ga shiawasesa. Kiben makichirasu mina de hako no mukou watteru..."

Apostle of Hustle- Energy of Death (indie rock-experimental)
"Calm the south: a drug, a deep memory... Well, we vowed to end our mother's misery..."

(The "Edit HTML" option is royally fucked. )

Death and the World

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 03:33:20 GMT

It kinda sucks that we have nothing in common anymore. :(
What happened.

Perhaps it was illusory all along.

§ Zeromancer- opelwork (industrial rock)

§ In Flames- the jester's dance (melodic death metal)

§ I Was A Teenage Satan Worshipper- Surfer Rockect Girls (electropop- indie rock)

§ Kagrra- Yuki koi uta (alternative rock- fusion)

§ Celldweller- afraid this time (industrial rock)

§ andy mckee- nakagawa-san (folk)

§ The Birthday Massacre- Happy Birthday (darkwave-post retro)

Protest An Hero

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 01:34:42 GMT

Today is GIF Day and the afternoon is very, VERY cold.
The winter chill is wet and sticks to your bones if you go outside.

There was a second lolgif and several paragraphs here, but I deleted them.
My mood just took a major dive.
Imagine that.

I miss the sunlight.

Celldweller- Symbiont (industrial rock- trance)
"Eraseable - expendable; I wish I didn't need you now..."

The Birthday Massacre- To Die For (gothic rock- dark wave)
"This is forever, but it won't last long. This is a memory that fades away in neverending."

In Flames- Jotun (melodic death metal)
"I often dream of huge, numb buildings. Jet-black, sinister architecture being installed when nobody sees..."

Hello Saferide- Long Lost Penpal (indie rock-pop)
"I don’t really know what happened. I guess life came in the way..."

The Boats- The March of the Sandbaggers (inde rock-pop)
"We spent the day tryin' to flag down planes, wearin' backpacks in the carpool lanes. But we collapsed in the grass with our thumbs pointed out to the river..."

Protest The Hero- Bloodmeat (post-hardcore-math rock)
"Hold an ear to the ground, hear the sound: clamoring and horses stammer as their gallop meets the earth."

Protest The Hero- Divinity Within (post hardcore- math rock)
"In the prison's backyard, where you'll give us your final breath. Last night, I saw you dine with lovers and human tears."

Protip: Tacos.

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 00:06:42 GMT

Tomorrow is the beginning of sophomore year- DO NOT WANT.
Thank God for Spring Break.

I'll be 20 years old in t-minus two days. Oh, rapture. :0

The Duskfall- Shoot it In (melodic death metal)
"This so called peaceful state, where only wars are made..."

Third Eye Blind- 10 Days Late (alternative rock)
"Low ride bicycles go cruising by. I laugh (I dont even know why), talk back at the ocean. Consequence and ozone..."

The Radio Dept.- Tell (electropop-shoegaze)
"And if you've felt her loyalty what can you do?"

Donn Ross- No Goodbyes (folk)
*How do like these instrumental descriptions, by the way?

Celldweller- The Last Firstborn (industrial rock-trance)
"Live a life in hell, through a mortal shell, asphyxiating..."

Can. You. Dig it? >:3

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 01:44:55 GMT

!! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 !!

♥ Anberlin- Adelaide (emo-pop rock)
"Like love, loss, lies and lust, some things in life are undeniable..."

♥ The Radio Dept- It's Personal (electropop-shoegaze)
*The space between words. Bookpage, sunshower.

♥ Donovan- Hurdy Gurdy Man (pyschadelic rock)
"Histories of ages past, unenlightened shadows cast. Down through all eternity: the crying of humanity..."

♥ In Flames- The Quiet Place (melodic death metal)
"I push the dirt- make me feel. Locate what swallows life. Night bird, you build my world..."

♥ Sasha- Coma (Ki-Theory Remix) (electonica- breakbeat)
*Empty birdcage, blue summer automaton.

♥ Diablo- The Preacher (melodic death metal)
"When you look into my eyes, you see a dead part of your life. We are still together as one, in your world, built on silence and greed..."

What do you remember about this year that is special to you? :3
I just remembered that I'm going to be 20 years old in another few weeks.
OH, IRONY. XD

I wanna do lots of stuff this January.
Mr. Paintbrusshhhh....? Where have you gotten to. >:)

Merry Christmas!

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 23:03:39 GMT

Holy. Wow.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

**( You get lucky size 7, cause you're my favorite. )

Wow.
WOW.
'Just coming down from the high of "I Am Legend."
It really is a spectacular film.Will Smith did an excellent job.

And it's not even the zombies that amp this movie up- it's the quiet, insular moments of isolation and post-horror that really sink their teeth into you. You empathize with Smith's character completely.
Rarely have I been that emotionally invested in a film.

Something to see for the holidays.
I got to watch it in my room, with the fam, today! (I downloaded it. Bootleg fun for everyone. >__>)
And I'm always curious to hear what everyone thought of a film after I watch it, so I zipped by a few newspaper and movie review sites, afterwards.
I was... amazed to find how many people disregarded "I Am Legend" out of hand, simply because it wasn't the exact transcript of the book. It really hit me.

Then I thought of how I had evaluated book-to-film adaptations in the past, and really, I can't say that I blame them. Fans of the original story want to preserve the integrity of the work, right?
That's perfectly understandable....when it's warranted.

The new film does justice to the ideas presented in the book, as far as I've read from citations of the work.
"I Am Legend" is simply narrated from a modern angle.

And think about it- movies and literature always reflect the parlances of our times, correct?
Would an exact play-by-play of the book still have carried the same weight? Would the symbols of vampirism and post-apocalyptic horror still have the same parallels as they did in the 1950's?
Obviously they similar echoes in pathos, but the cultural tuning still needs adjustment.

"I Am Legend" (of 2007) is a well-crafted successor to the spirit of the book and stands alone as a excellent film.
Hands down.

There.
Enough TL;DR.

Now for the good stuff: I got a new mp3 player and a Wacom Bamboo Fun, which I've yet to play with in all the excitement.
What's you guys get? XD
How'd you guys spend your holidays?

Tell me ALL.